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Sara Jenkins
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 Posted - 11/18/2006 : 07:58:48
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 Today is a day we've been waiting for and a day we never wanted to see. The most important thing is that Chris is vindicated. He DID NOT kill himself, he did not drink too much, he did not act stupid, he did not fall and bump his head or try to save a drowning animal or any of the other RIDICULOUS things people have told us over the past 4 years.
Chris was the quintessential doer. He had this amazing cloud that followed him everywhere. He could brighten the darkest of situations and was always a CONSTANT supply of comic relief. His loss hits the core stronger than anything I could ever explain. I probably can't count on one hand how many times I've been able to truly laugh since he's been gone. His loss has left a crater that I know will never be filled.
Chris is vindicated and we now know that the people that took his life took it for sport. How exactly do you deal with that? No answer is a good answer but these people just did it just because. He would have NEVER been put in this situation if it weren't for the Lone Tree . A Lone Tree employee had his coat, cell phone, wallet, and they kicked him out for SIMPLY NO REASON and did not provide him with his belongings. They sent him into Satan's den with nothing but a paper thin costume.
Please don't walk the streets alone. If you any sort of a human being you at least have some sort of feelings in your heart. There are people that don't and they are lurking in the dark. How can you care so little about human life? Whether these pond scum ever are prosecuted or not they will kill again and be caught at some point. Make sure your not next on their list. I wish everyday I could go back to that naive place in the world where life was so simple. Where people were inherantly good, where the sun shined just a bit brighter. It's not simple. There are really bad people out there and they do really bad things. They don't care what they do, they don't care who they hurt and what is the punishment..send them to prison where they can eat for free and hang out with their looser buddies, until the day they get out and strike again? No, there will be no punishment strong enough for what they've done in this lifetime, they don't feel remorse for what they did. They don't care who they've hurt. It's times like these that you need to hold onto your faith that on that eventful day that they pass there will be a secure place in hell for them to live out eternity.
It has been 4 years of pain and what most can't understand is that we've spent those 4 years searching and fighting for an investigation. We will gladly hand the torch over to the MPD to take it from here, that was a job we never wanted. Now we can start grieving the loss of an amazing man. There will always be that empty seat at the Thanksgiving table, those presents that should be under the tree for him, the silly antics and conversations that "should be there" I'm just hoping over time they will get a little easier to deal with. That we'll cry a little less each day. That seeing a brother and sister together will stop taking my breath away and flooding me with the most undescrible pain in my heart. I miss him every minute. I'm so sad he will never meet my husband and child. The world has been robbed of an amazing human being and for that we all pay a price.
Chris I miss you and I'd give everything I've ever had and will ever get just to have a minute with you again.
I love you, Sara
http://www.myspace.com/chrisjenkins3
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Edited by - Sara Jenkins on 11/18/2006 10:35:24 |
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Tanya
USA
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Posted - 11/18/2006 : 20:04:25
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Sara,
I'm so happy that Chris' voice is finally being heard. I've been praying for this day to come to you and your family. It's a very comforting feeling to know that somewhere there is justice, after losing such hope in what is known as our justice system. I'm sure your brother is throwing a big ol' party up there with this new news!! *hugs* to you and your parents ~Tanya
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ChildSeek
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Posted - 11/19/2006 : 09:43:13
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Four years is way to long for your family and Chris to wait for the truth to come out. I am so sorry that the justice system failed all of you.
Justice will come. As you said it will not be hard enough, they will have all the things in prision that our screwed up system allows them but be assured when their time comes it will be swift and direct.
Chris has always been in my heart, and he will remain there. Strangers do care and there are good people in the world.
Do not give up hope that things will change in our world.
Your family did what they had to to find the truth.
Chris was very lucky to have a family that loved him so much and always will. |
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shells
Canada
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Posted - 11/20/2006 : 21:02:08
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I just heard the news ( takes awhile to get to Canada I guess) and burst into tears. I am so happy and so sad all at the same time.
My heart is with you all and I hope that the pathetic losers that did this to Chris spend the rest of thier lives in prison knowing that no in fact they did not get away with murder - despite thier longtime free ride. |
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leahandkyle2
USA
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Posted - 11/21/2006 : 09:49:16
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Everytime I read a message from you Sara it breaks my heart to know that so many times I have taken my brother for granted...and you would give anything in the world to spend just one more minute with yours. I feel selfish and unappreciative and this is just one more way that what happened to Chris will turn into something positive. The people who did this dont realize that you can take a body but you cant take a spirit and Chris' spirit will forever live on. The love you two had makes me realize how short life can be and that nothing is to be taken for granted. This Thanksgiving I will look at my family differently and will thank God more and more for what I have. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers always and hope that the people responsible get what they deserve. The life they live here on Earth in jail may not be torture for them but i assure you the life they will live in Hell for eternity sure will be.
Love & prayers for your family
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lanie
USA
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Posted - 11/21/2006 : 10:50:17
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Ana
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Posted - 11/21/2006 : 15:54:40
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Sara,
I have followed your family's progress on Chris's case from way back. See, I have always felt for you. I ,too, lost my only brother, my only sibling, in December of 2002. He was killed in a one car accident and burned to death, trapped in his car only 60 feet from his front door. He was 27 years old, and had just gotten married. Because it was a one car accident, no investigation was ever done..which apparently, is procedure when someone dies in a one car accident. We will never know what caused the accident and will forever speculate and wonder what happened that evening.
My brother's death not only took away much of my happiness, but it destroyed my family. My mother and father have divorced after being married for 32 years. My mother has a hard time being with me, and talking to me and not thinking of my brother as well, so my very presence at times, causes her pain. My brother and I were incredibly close, even though he was 4 years younger than I am. To her, we are like a "set". My whole family shattered like a wine glass dropped to the floor on that day. I lost my very best friend, and someone whom I thought I would go through life with. No matter what happened in my life, my brother and I were a team.
I find little joy in things now. It will be four years soon, and I still have dreams where I cannot recall anything upon waking except the horror and emptiness that I felt at the very moment I realized that he was never coming back and that I wouldn't ever see him again. What I am saying is that I really know your pain. I know what it is like to not know. I know what it is like to lose someone that was so important that the color in your world dulls a bit, and it will never be the same. How you feel people tell you that it will be alright and that you still have memories... those sentiments that you are so extremely thankful for, but also feel like punching something at the very same moment in time that you hear them. It's been four years and I can still cry in the middle of the instant soup aisle at the grocery store and have no idea why, and then feel like I am slightly insane. The only reason being that my brother is gone. I cringe looking at birthday cards and seeing the "to My Brother" ones. I know how it feels to want to tell the entire world about this wonderful, remarkable person...and to have every cell in your body feel as it is missing something, every day.
I hope that you find some kind of solace in the fact that Chris is being given the respect that you all cried out for so long ago.The respect that his life and spirit should have dictated that he be treated with from the very first day. I am hopeful that this may open law officials' eyes in other areas where young men have gone missing to be later found drown, like in my town of Eau Claire, Wisconsin and LaCrosse Wisconsin. I hope someone will come to the conclusion that they don't know every single thing and that things are not an obvious case of black and white just because they think they should be and have made up their mind to only see it as such.
Mostly, my heart goes out to you as a sister. It seems so often that the world underestimates us sisters. Our role...our feelings. So often we are only seen as the people who provide brothers with fodder for teasing...who hold up are parents when they need it, and our feelings are often brushed aside with a "how is his girlfriend/wife"? or "how are your parents doing?" We have to be strong, but we don't have anyone who knows how we really feel. I feel like the other half of me is gone. I am sure that you do too...possibly it will help to know that there is another person out there who is thinking of you, and of how you feel. Even if it is just a stranger who used to be a sister once, too.
My love, blessings and wishes of peace go out to you and your family and all of those who loved and continue to love Chris. |
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